The past few days I have had this horrible pain in my back that radiates through my left side. I couldn't get out of bed and my 11 year old spent the day caring for not only me but his younger siblings as well. NOT something I wish for a child to do.
So, I lay in bed and wait for my husband to get in from work so we can go to the emergency room. Upon arrival they immediately brought me in to be seen and mentioned the possibility of kidney stones, which is what I thought as well. They hooked the IV up and was giving me a pain medicine that should have taken away the pain. It didn't so they decided on a CT scan to see if there was a stone lodged somewhere. Two hours later, there is no stone. Instead I have several cysts on my liver and a growth nodule on my renal gland above my right kidney. The doctor said it was imperative that I see my family doctor right away since I refuse to let them keep me over night. I needed an MRI as soon as possible to check other vital organs for cysts as well and to rule out it being more serious. When I asked what he meant by "more serious" he said the dreaded "C" word. Cancer. SERIOUSLY??? I am 29 years old and in the past year I have been diagnosed with Reynauds disease as well. Now this? Am I not too young to be having these health problems? Im not even 30 yet!!!!!
I came home in shock that I am about to undergo extensive testing and possibly biopsies to check me for cancer. It's surreal. I laid in bed crying asking "Why???? Why me??" As soon as I said it, it was like something inside said "Why Not you?" I was a crazy woman last night---talking to myself and trying to sort it all out in my head. I have 3 young children for Christ's sake and 3 young step children as well. This CAN'T be happening. They NEED me, they need their Momma and Smomma. They depend on me for so much. It's not fair. While it's true that we don't know for sure if the cysts are cancerous it is still a health problem that will lead to poking, prodding, and maybe even surgery. I can't be down for a few weeks for surgery, who is going to take care of my kids??? I am terrified.